Committing to contentment...

"There are two roads to walk down and one road to choose, so I'm thinking over the things that you've said" -Dana Glover

As the last couple of weeks have unfolded, I've learned a lot of things about myself. And one is something I've always known, but has really been put away until now. Raise your hand if you've heard this one before: "I'm a guy. And I have commitment issues..."

I think it all started with the band at Steele Lane Elementary School (jokes and laughing can begin now.) But seriously, I was in fifth grade, and just kind of on a whim I told Mrs. Barron-Stultz that I wanted to quit and not play the saxophone. Thank goodness for her and not letting me quit until the year was over. A couple years later it was baseball (which I played for seven years before quitting,) then football (which I quit before summer workouts started at BHS,) then basketball (because it was going to consume my life and I wanted to do other things.)

There's this funny saying: "The grass is always greener on the other side." It's a funny one.

For the better part of my teenage and "grown-up" life, I think I've lived down to this WAY too much. I always see other options and think to myself, "I wonder if that might be better..." I even tried to drop-out of Furman once, and probably would have had it not been for my wonderful mother who back-handed that idea right out of my head when I brought it up while we were watching "A Walk to Remember" during Easter Break my freshman year.

This summer I found myself living out this thought once again. Doubts about whether I was sure of what I wanted. What if there might be better? Well, they say admitting you have a problem is the first step. Maybe, but if you never move past that step, it doesn't get you much does it? So here I am to say that I'm sick of wondering how green the grass on the other side really is. Because the truth is, if we allow ourselves to fully enjoy the beauty of what we have in the moment, the grass will always look greener right where we are! We can soak up the joy of what we have and not settle for wondering, "What if?"

So here it goes, "I'm a guy. And I'm leaving my commitment issues at the door..."

forever unfinished...